fuck I’m not in the right headspace when I’m asking this, unresolved trauma. Now I’m repeating in my head “love them more than my mental illnesses”.
I wanted to warn an organization i cared about my past and that manipulation comes naturally to me to the point where I don’t notice after the fact. I legit want see them succeeded and stand in blind solidarity.
I have reached out someone in the organization about my issues. I’m hoping they respond.
I’ve been working on myself and trying to be a better person. I’ve seen the beauty of nature and see how the entire history biosphere has made me and the bacteria i rely on and the food i eat. i learned to love every living thing because i can use them to influence events well beyond my death. I should learn to love other people because they’re the most capable species
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I’ve done that in the past. and i work on absolutely destroying ego’s for my amusement. it’s my favorite hobby
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yeah I enjoy it, i actually hesitant to encourage that behavior or give people advice on that. I don’t want mentally abusive tactics being used by irresponsible people or other lesser narcissists.
It doesn’t sound like narcissism (from my own experience with narcissistic people). It sounds more like you are having some sort of episode. I’d strongly, strongly suggest getting in touch with a professional. I genuinely hope you are okay.
yeah. agreed. this is someone going through something, and drawing an intense and overly corrective conclusion. perhaps from a over developed sense of shame or guilt that has lead them to this conclusion.
or perhaps they were in a relationship with a narcissist and that person has manipulated them into being their are the narcissist… and need to warn others about it… that is something a narcisst would do to someone else!
i once had a relationship with a very unwell person, who tried to convince me of my own mental illness, which was a projection of their own. this person was also a practicing therapist… and i never realized how horrible it all was until a like 2 years later i saw therapist who pointed out to me how this fucked up and horrible this person really was and how unprofessional it was. esp because they basically like went down the dsm 5 and kept trying to convince me i had SOMETHING.
Man reading your evaluation of me is interesting. Mostly just a shot in the dark damn they really wanted to practice psychology, do see other narcissist have a hard time hiding their narcissism from other people, I probably have a subtle aura around me
No, you’re just dumb and delusional and full of yourself.
That’s not narcissism, it’s you being an average person. Most people think they have magical auras. They are wrong.
and your here on the internet, trying to bias-confirm yourself about how special and unique and amazing you are. just like everyone else.
… I’m not calling the “subtle aura” magical, it’s just short hand for how my demeanor hints at my narcissism 😑
Love the hostility I’m getting and the finger wagging I’m getting.
all of which means you’re not a narcissistic dude.
narcissists don’t enjoy finger wagging and hostility. they hate it and they fly into a rage when it’s done to them.
why is it that you want so badly to be a narcissist? because it will give you a excuse to justify something shitty you did to folks?
If someone is a narcissist that believes themself better than others, why would they give a shit about hostility and finger wagging from others? If anything, it would prove that the other person is losing their cool and is therefore inferior to the narcissist.
You’re a little narcissist. You’re relentlessly gas lighting. Trying to convince me I’m wrong.
I enjoy hostility from others because I can undermine the hostile people, make them crash out, and they can’t do shit other than get called out for playing the victim.
If someone is nice or neutral to me then I have to deal with the guilt that I’m manipulated and attacking their ego
you have no idea wtf you are talking about.
you’re clearly just trolling, and just defined what being a troll is.