Even if they’re not difficult, they still feel like a burden, and I’m very worried that I won’t have time to do them or that I’ll forget about them. I either put them off but constantly think about them, or I try to get them done as quickly as possible and get very irritated when something prevents me from doing them. I can never relax if I have things to do, even if they’re not urgent; they’re still a pain in my ass. I don’t know why I feel this way, and I think this is the reason why I avoid difficulties and my life sucks so much.
Everyone is different, but I just wait until I get that spark and go hard as fuck at the list. Usually I cant muster up the requisite effort, and it makes me feel physically nauseous forcing myself to do housework/self-care, but sometimes I’ll get a good day and the trick is to just keep it going.
When the good day hits, just never stop. I don’t focus on the big picture because that just kills my motivation. I do whatever is in front of me at the moment and I dont stop.