I think a lot of people learn to be satisfied with age and experience, and you’re getting closer to that every day. You’ve now experienced that the grass isn’t fully green on either side of the stable life vs. wild life line. Now you know that both sides have tradeoffs. After a lot of those kinds of experiences, you come to appreciate things you couldn’t appreciate before.

It also helps to think of life in terms of seasons. In this season, you might feel a lot of spontaneous adventures and freedom and social connections, so enjoy them while they’re here in spite of the instability. In the next, you might have more peace and find yourself really savoring the small, quiet moments.

Also, literally touching grass sometimes helps. Not kidding. Just try taking a few minutes every day to be present in the moment somewhere outdoors, somewhere with grass or a tree or some other kind of plant nearby. If you’re in a city, maybe go sit on a park bench for a few minutes each day or walk around your block. If you have a backyard, hang out there for a few minutes in the evenings. It might feel pointless or awkward at first, but over time it will turn into a nice moment that you enjoy each day. After a while it’s an instant satisfaction boost, particularly on sunny days.