I’m not sure I want to die of a heart attack if I live to old age. I thought maybe I’d use a gun to relieve my suffering so that everything would end quickly, but I’m too scared. Are there any recommendations on how to die without suffering or something like that? Maybe I should leave this world during a happy dream?
Or should I humble myself and go through suffering before I die?
I’m clarifying: it’s not that I want to commit suicide when I’m young or right now, no, I mean when, let’s say, I have one day, a week or a month left to live suffering from an illness, or I know that after a while I’m going to have a heart attack that will definitely kill me.
The idea of killing yourself because you may one day have a heart attack is bonkers but say you have some slow degenerative disease that’s a lot more understandable
I’ve had a NDE, it was calm, peaceful and I felt nothing but a mild sense of awe looking at what seemed to me to be a huge brightly glowing spark/orb that despite being impossibly bright didn’t hurt my eyes
To live is to suffer, you can’t avoid that but I don’t think actually dying is scary maybe if what leads you there is violent or painful that would be but actually crossing over? I don’t think that will be suffering