fuck I’m not in the right headspace when I’m asking this, unresolved trauma. Now I’m repeating in my head “love them more than my mental illnesses”.

I wanted to warn an organization i cared about my past and that manipulation comes naturally to me to the point where I don’t notice after the fact. I legit want see them succeeded and stand in blind solidarity.

I have reached out someone in the organization about my issues. I’m hoping they respond.

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    Are you manipulating us right now in order to get some answer you want?

    As people said, talk to a therapist. Is this normal behavior or thought patterns? Maybe you’re going through some sort of crisis or psychosis.

    Reach out to a professional for help. Good luck!

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      yes actually im intentionally making you all curious so that yall will listen and to help me process old trauma. yeah i plan these things in advance and i use a manipulation tactic to bring people together

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        Do you get some satisfaction from sharing your trauma with others? Like you get a kick out of people’s reactions?

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          Is this like an actual psych evaluation?

          I’ll jerk off your reactions if you want me to say depraved shit for valuetainment