I noticed that it is impossible to hold it back indefinitely and I break down once a month or once every 2 weeks and no, this is not what you might have thought, this is different, but I don’t know if it is worth saying what it is with me, since I am not sure that the post will not be deleted for this. For example, the desire to beat the walls until you break your arms.
The fact they were so ambiguous and used the word fetish honestly makes me think its an illegal/shady type of porn they are into. That or they have a warped view on the morality of masturbating. But with so little info I figured I’d cast a wide net.