There’s a sizeable diaspora of russians in my country. There was an anti-regime protest a few years ago where many were seen destroying their russian passport.
Nobody was against their position. Russians are not by default feared in any way, here. I hope that is the same in many other places.
If you feel you are not well where you are, leave. Nobody owes anything to their country; it’s the opposite. Strive for a different life elsewhere. Don’t be afraid to speak of what drove you out. Teach others where it went wrong, so they can prevent it in their own land.
You are not a traitor. You are not a country’s property.
How?