I am trying. But my state is facing heavy brain drain. And honestly it’s taking all I got to even care right now.

My mom is sick too. She keeps denying it. And wants to visit Hawaii which we have been trying for years to set up and now is our last chance and I simply can’t even live with myself if I let that chance go.

Goddamn. This is probably why prostate cancer is sky rocketing. I am pretty sure I got it, but I doubt I can afford to get checked. Wothless fucking life anyway.

Even still it would be pretty hard to get people to shoot their cousins.